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I met Mark when I was just starting college at a LAN party, we hit it off right off the bat. This whole thing starts with a catch of course..
Mark is the Ex boyfriend of my first boyfriend, which I didn't know at the time and never seemed to matter. Well, he had before me had a Polygamous relationship with 3 people: Mark, James, and Greg.
Back to Mark and I, we quickly started hanging out more often and in a few weeks were dating. Weeks turned into months, and then into years. I was sure Mark was the one for me, we got a long great. We played video games together, and enjoyed the same TV shows. I felt like I won the lottery at age 18 in finding a lifetime partner.
Until life slaps me in the face with hard and unexpected changes very recently. Mark still had a flair for the Polygamous life style, and while I wasn't too keen on it I was confident in our relationship together.
He invited a girl, Penny, over. She was sweet, I had little issue with her. So I put up with Mark being with Penny and didn't mind it all too much really.
The irony is that Mark somehow really must have minded himself, he started to have panic attacks and some horrible break downs.
Just about 9 days ago he had the biggest mental meltdown he's ever had, and the following week he started to lose his grip on reality. He would stare at me for long periods of time and write on paper without speaking, or ask me questions that would catch me by surprise.
It progressed like that on and on, he asked me if his sister's living room was littered with cameras, if his pet cat had been replaced with a robotic spy cat, he would sleep on the floor on the other side of the bed to just be those few feet farther from the window he feared.
All in all, it was having me terrified and oblivious as to what to do until I spotted a red flag I had been looking for: Late last Monday when I couldn't sleep Mark walked into the computer room looking petrified over something. Then he sneaked closer to me and whispered in my ear "Are they trying to kill me?" he was also glancing around the room nervously.
I don't know a whole ton about psychology, but I know he was losing his mind into delusional paranoia. The moment he thought his life was at risk he could at any time go into fight or flight and potentially become violent.
I left the next day after I finally getting to sleep. Before I left I spoke to his parents in detail about everything I had seen and suggested taking him to a Doctor of some kind sooner then later.
This whole thing has me thrown for a loop, I thought I had everything I wanted in life and now fate has taken it from me. It's time to try again, at least I'm still young.
Anyway, I had been living with Mark up until then I quickly packed everything I had into my car on Tuesday and left. I had 2 choices try to call anyone for a place to stay or live with my parents.
Of course fate says the only person willing to take me in was one of the people in Mark's previous Polygamous relationship.
The first night I stayed at Greg's house I told him this story as well in a bit more detail, when I came up to the part about Penny he stopped me. He told me about how Mark has been cheating on the group with Penny from back when that group still existed. Who knows what else I didn't know about Penny that could have made Mark lose it like he did.
All I can do to keep myself going is reiterate my personal motto "The past and future are concepts to keep you from living in the present" Mark is now exclusively in my past.
Oh and my new roommate seems to have the hots with me, and will flirt with me even in front of his boyfriend. Why doesn't that surprise me..?
Anyway, all you internet people wish me luck in starting again and not to get one that goes nuts!
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